eidulfitr 2019

As dusty as it is.

Assalamualaikum. I can't believe that I am actually writing this when the only thing I wanted to do right now is no-thing. To cut the long story short, semester 5 has ended and I am left with only 1 last major posting; Medicine. I am still nowhere near the momentum I had before going back for Raya, but nvm that.

Alhamdulillah for the opportunity to be able to gather the whole SHIRAZ family members on this Raya. The last time we took a picture with all of us was back in 2013/2014, I guess? After ~4-5 years, we were again blessed to be gathered as a family and a complete squad. And this is the exact reason of why this year's Raya was very anticipating and exciting.

Alhamdulillah too for the chance to celebrate a part of Ramadhan with my most beloved circle. Nothing compares to 'terawih', 'buka puasa' and 'sahur' together with SHIRAZs. Alhamdulillah <3

Let me start with Raya wishes from my big family of Arwah Tokayah+Mamatok >>>

ours (moklong +poklong)

moksu + poksu

mija + pcik zizi

cik rose + cik mi

But, we're missing CikNa+Pcik Dzidi's family picture, huhu. I'm sorry about that.

Anyways, Eidulfitr 2019 was lit * include star gif*

sepupu generasi ke-4 bersatu
 (missing iffah hok duk ganu lagi masani)

ciklin will make sure yg yguys will imitate
this picture once you're old 

bagusnya ciklin haha

It was a very wise decision indeed; familiarizing Maryam with cameras and photography. She did well this time. In fact, so much better than we'd expected. Never underestimate the power of early exposure hehe. Well done, Maryam. Ciklin is very proud of you (banyakla skit gambar ciklin since awak jadi fotografer hehe)

aryan and his ibu (dak jauh ni,
perkataan fav dia is -sik mok. cer teka apa maksud dia?)

maryam's skill, again, impressive ;)

pokok +bunga kuning kuncup haha

hai dhiya sayangggg

model baju melayu segak bergaya

model colgate lah kot ~

ni model apa eh?

cinta hati gue nih, perkenalkan hehe

alhamdulillah, wlau meniti usia tua, masih dpt duit raya huhu

the last 3 airbender

ok sebab rasa semua cantik, letak je la sume gambar

single ah ni kot- tp sorang tak lama lagi off market ;(

ki-ut

umi dan iffah

maryam's

okayla ciklin takyah hire photographer for any future events later,
why hire one, when we have maryam?

Next, we''ll brag about our second talented photographer; Aryan. He's on duty for 2nd Eid haha. But maybe he needs some extra classes (but most probably he just need to be a little older than he is now).

colgate ads anytime, anywhere

nampak tak angle dr bawah tu huhu, but nvm we got you

kepala terpotong haha

sikit je lagi tak gegar dah kay? hehe

Before the celebration ends, we went to makang2 first.

klu kau zoom gambar ni haha, nmpk la betapa
 aryan x minat duk atas pangku ciklin dia ahha

Raya in kelate always and always ended too soon. We went back to Seremban on Friday, and alhamdulillah had no encounter with traffic congestion.

taken before one episode of a very sad drama,
aryan nak balik sarawak dah huhu.
do miss us dear

Received this handmade kad raya just as soon as I arrived in Belgaum huhu. What a thoughtful and wonderful surprise! Thank you Dinie sayang.

buah hati pengarang jantung

And just like that. Raya ended. Am still not moving on with Raya because of the memories created. Maybe time will heal. Like it always do.

mommies TT

Till then :)

Reserved

Assalamualaikum. I am writing down my thoughts just so my mind won't be that occupied. At times, writing heals. And most of the times, writing satisfies me.

I am currently in second week of Paediatric posting and am having quite a tiring week but I had fun, so we have a compensatory mechanism there :)
However, the main focus of my writing today is about people's thoughts. I've had a few conversations with different individuals but I had to say that I quite dislike the opinions or thoughts made on basis of feelings or emotions. I mean we don't do decisions based on what we feel. Life would be really messy if we do that. And maybe that is why I chose to be reserved, because after reflecting on what I do every day, I always feel glad of not saying the things that I felt earlier. And alhamdulillah, this exact characteristic had helped me through a lot of things.

Being a normal human being, with a plus point of being a woman, we could have experienced thousands of feelings in a matter of seconds. But that doesn't mean that we could voice it out whenever we want to.

I always remind myself that people around me, have always do their best to accept me for who I am what more with so many flaws. The second thing is, we certainly cannot ask someone to think and act like we want them to because even our fingerprints are individualised, so is our characters. And it would be uninteresting if I am to meet someone who think, act, talk, dress just like me. Don't you think so too?

So, my point is, always always always be the one who accept our friends for who they are eventhough we'll eventually come to a point where tolerance is no longer our companion. We could take a break from the relationship if it really hurts us inside, but that is the least that we could do.
If you think that you've had enough, look at your own hearts. There must be sth blocking you to see what's good in that particular person you have an issue with. Most importantly, pray for His guidance as He knows it all.

And, we can never survive alone. Treat the community around you like they should be treated. What goes around comes around, remember? A team is a team- so don't act like a lone ranger.

Footnote : If we are having a conversation, a nod doesn't always mean that I agree to your point of view. I don't know about you guys, but I have learnt my life lesson well, kot? Everytime I try to voice out what I think, they don't seem to be appreciating what I say. And usually they think that they're right and the other party is at fault. What I do now is, listen and include myself in the conversation only if they are willing to hear me before this. If they had rejected my opinions/thoughts bluntly in the past, I'm sorry, but I won't say anything in the future. I'll just act like you're right because that's what you want, right?
I am reserved. And I chose to be one. I had to take care of my feelings too, right? (takkan nak minta tolong korang jagakan pula). I'd rather nod than being rejected bluntly. Sorry not sorry?

pesanan khidmat masyarakat :
kalau nak tolak pendapat orang,
tolaklah dengan berhemah, kalau tolak bulat-bulat,
baik takyah minta pendapat,
bincang je dlm kepala, mudah kan?