Assalamualaikum and a very good day to you, readers!!!
It's already Monday now, which means we're already at another episode of there's-still-so-much-to-learn-but-so-little-time-to-do-so. There's a whole new series of it, guys. Every single week haha. And this statement always end up with the next thought. Of course, it's gonna be a long list of what I love about Belgaum, but it would be awesome if we've got just one more day for weekends huhu. 6 days of classes is tiring, with every chores waiting to be completed in just one day. The weekly laundry (which is usually more than 2 bassinets), sweeping, mopping, cooking, reading (non-medicos books), writing (non-SMR things), shopping, bathroom cleaning, ironing. All to be done in one day. What a challenge!
So, recently, I finally turned 24!! Happy birthday to me :)))
And this entry (as yguys might've guessed) would be my appreciation post for this online journal ehehe. I mean, who the hell's going to do the blogging other than me, duh. Be that as it may, before I proceed to the album-sharing-session, let me rearrange my thoughts+feelings+internal discussions, and put it here, just because I want it to be written and shared. Nothing more nothing less, bismillah.
This is a speech I'd like to deliver as a birthday speech that no one asked for- though if asked in real life, I might not be able to do that well.
Honestly, I am always aware that as each day passes by, I am getting older. And nearer to the unknown but definite deathbed. My birthday is actually a reminder that I've been living for the past 24 years, and without doubt that I am going to be held responsible for everything that I do, say, hear, spread and ignore. There's also a huge mountain waiting to be climbed, which seems foggy and steep as I take another step forward. It's a metaphor/analogy if I may. At this age, I am always curious, unsure and sometimes scared of what the future has in store for me. Will I pass this Pro exam on time, will I brave through housemanship with ease, will I be able to settle down, will I have a family of my own, will I excel as a doctor, will there be good changes for HO/MOs in Malaysia, will there be opportunity for me to grow and become a specialist, will I this, will I that? Haihh.
I'm pretty sure that peers of my age are facing through the same set of questions (which would be tailored to your nature of work/profession). If not all, then, I dare say that majority are. We're at that age, where every questions popped up but with no answers, but we're still living life as it is. We wake up to our routine, be it studying, working, 'menganggur-ing' or whatevs. But, we keep on breathing. We keep on living. Even with a huge amount of uncertainties.
Needless to say, this too shall pass. We'll soon be in our 30s, and be looking back to our younger selves, just to say "No need to worry dear, you'll have it all figured out soon". But as long as we're going through any phase of life, it'll always seem impossible until we've gone through it all. And, insyaAllah we'll keep on unfolding these well-written fate, in faith amiin.
A birthday from my POV too, is a reminder to always keep myself in check. I should always make an effort to renew what I knew, learn new things, find/make time to spend with the ones I care and love, improve my weaknesses, strengthen my fortes. I should also be a better version of myself in front of Him despite failing 1000x while trying to do so. And, I should pay attention to my degree of self-love without sacrificing anyone's rights/happiness/worth.
(No wonder no one has ever asked for a birthday speech, because it could be this long and too internalised? Haha)
Generally, it's always the person who's born on that day who is being celebrated. Though I agree that we are celebrating it right, since he/she had been trying their best to be physically, mentally & emotionally well every single day (this too is a great achievement, no doubt). But, no one's gonna deny that we're celebrating it quite incorrect-ly. Because behind all who I am, I have my nonstop supply of prayers from Mama, Abah, family, friends whom helped me be who I hoped I could be. And all the love, care, attention that I received has helped me realising my dream, a future I'd envisioned all the time. I am everything that I am, because of you.
And with that being said, I'd like to convey my deepest and sincerest thanks to Mama, Abah, SHIRAZs, friends (to name a few: Gucci gang, Oddsis, my postingmates, my besties).
YOU ARE ONE OF THE BEST THINGS THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME. THANK YOU :)
Thank you for believing in me, accepting my flaws, vibing with my weirdness, and tolerating my sinks/holes. May all the the good things in life be yours, and may Allah bless you all. Thank youuu <3
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| celebrate lowkey, nazira suwit belikan huhu; my fav flavour!! |
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| chose white as my birthday attire because white symbolizes kain putih, yg kini telah diwarnai, dan akan terus diwarnai sebaiknya insyaAllah |
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| 1st trial |
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| 2nd trial baru puas hati katanya |
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| bday girl had a bad day, kena tinggal pula tu, but gucci gang+nazira came to the rescue!! Tq babes. Babes i mmg takminat bersiap memalam. |
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| Jadi i kena lukis nak post gmabr ma babes ni hahah. Meriah sambutan umur 24 ni. Tahun depan sambut sensorang ke huhu |
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| adik enol wish kita laa |
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| zaman muda nii |
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| geng ngeteh 2 bulan sekali |
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| takleh ah ferra acah2 gelak ni haha |
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| kakak zeti buli kita gais, and caught on camera!! |
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| with tikah sayangg <3 |
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| tq ma babess, dpt lagu lagi perghh |
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| hakak influencer wish uii |
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| sambutan 3 hari 3 mlm katanya. next day gi cari baju pulop aduh haha |
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| ni sambutan hari terakhir la patutnya haha. masheh suee lanje kita, dengar kita bebel. harap2 impian kecil kita akan tertunai suatu hari nanti amiin |
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| takde fan club, so tak biasa dpt hadiah ni haha. tp nak ucap masheh bbanyok sbb bui kito hadiah. kito raso terharu n loved sgt. kalu nok mention sorg2 pun panjei dooh nati, tapi tqsm for the gifts. semoga makin murah rezeki semuanya amiin. jgn risau, doa jualah hadiah terbaik :))) |
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| <333 |
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| ieka maniss hantar kasih sayang dari tingkat 1 oemjii!!! tq iekaaa. ieka kata dia tak pandai tulis2 ni, dia kata kau tau kan apa dlm hati aku. ah sudah. suruh ai baca hati pula skrg. okay iekaa, i dalami hati u haha masheh iekaa bb |
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| mcm take turn pula eh, tq farah sayanggg. farah jalan kot nak bui kito hadioh ni, terharu kitoo |
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| fayyyy, why u so sweettt. dah la special from msia lak tu, huwaa masheh fay, selalu sapot, dgr alin bebel tak sudah. <3 |
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| hehe last2, husna bui baju ko kito. dia kata ucapan ada kat tag dia haha. masheh husna maniss |
