Sunday, December 31, 2017

Why write?

Assalamualaikum, guys.

Feel like pouring out my thoughts, so here I am. The same questions popped up quite a few times during this two weeks. I kept wondering, what's the real reason of me writing those posts when I do admit some of them are of no beneficial value.

Why do authors write? What do readers demand for?

If you've been actually following my series of boring posts (#sadtruth), the first reason of me still doing this is because initially I wanted to improve my English. That was way back when we were in Form 2. Dinie & Ainatul were both better in English, so as an ambitious student, I went to ask for some tips. And then we came up with blogging. We promised to write without any mix of languages (as if I knew many languages ;P).

Back then, Harry Potter series had helped me through a lot. Not to mention those new vocabularies, style of writing, and I was really amazed how JK Rowling's creativity in producing such fantasy, and somehow making it look & sound so real! I can always imagine that I was sometimes Harry/ Hermione but never a Ron, hehe. Plus, the fictional magical storyline is ever so entertaining!

That was how a Fadzlin learnt how to write. I do realise that keeping myself in close distance with books (fictional/ non-fictional) will help me to improve my communication skills(speaking & writing). But, being a medical student ( I have to use this as an excuse) make it hard to find such free time because most of my free times would be filled either with sleep or some moderate physical exercises.

Let us get back to my inceptive intention. Look. I do want to actually give out benefits through my writings, but of course at times, I kind of busy pampering myself with my story, that I forgot to include such important piece of words. Remind me if I do so. With my best regards, let us all familiarize ourselves with this dua :

"Ya Allah, masukkanlah aku ke dalam syurgaMu tanpa hisab dan azab, walaupun sesungguhnya aku tidak layak. Dan adililah aku bukan dengan amalanku, tapi adililah aku dengan kebaikanMu"

May Allah grant us His blessings all the way through.

Saturday, December 16, 2017


Hey there! Whadup?

I don't know if this has become a habit, and I really hope it isn't going to, because I shouldn't be doing this yet again. Previously too,  I wrote a blog post a night before EBA. And there's no need to waste your time guessing because I will be having my next EBA tomorrow. Me being me. Urghhh

Nevermind me.

Let's talk about some good news from Tc Fairus! Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal, as insyaAllah if everything's going well, we're going to meet Tc Fairus Jr in 2018. YAY. Congratulation to teacher and husband. We'll pray for the best (can't help praying it's going to be our 'gu', hehe). Anyways, we wish you & baby the best of health, amiin. 

Speaking of being grateful, indeed, if we're grateful for everything that we have, we wouldn't be thanking Him enough. There isn't any thing on Earth is ours and in fact they are all borrowed temporarily by Him. See the people around you, feel each breath you take in, smell and hear the nature. There still is a lot to be thankful for. Hence, familiarize your daily routine with praises to Allah, okay?

So, alhamdulillah, after few episodes of sulking, persuading, 'gebang'-ing, 7 of us finally made it to Mahabaleshwar. It took a 5 hour journey on a car; one way. Riding on Innova with 8 occupants really was a 'great' experience. I was barely able to stretch me long legs, resulting in hip+thigh cramps, and sadly on top of that menstrual cramps did made an appearance. All in all, the journey was bearable, haha. Our main goal upon reaching Mahabaleshwar is to eat a ton of strawberries, because obviously they are sweet and cheap. A kg equals only Rs200. And that's only RM14 guys. I almost reached plethora state d/t excessive strawberry consumption, (does that make sense? pleasela gelak kalau tak lawak pun ;) )

Activities enjoyed include : strawberry eating, Mapro products hunting (this place really resembles MARDI ), Mapro food eating, horse riding in Venna Lake, ATV riding, strawberry eating again and we did spend some time in the entertainment park ( we only played bumper car+drop tower). The most enjoyable activity would be 'playing models' (this obviously applies on Su if not everyone).
And as for me, I enjoyed SonyRX100M1-ing the view and people :D

That concludes our brief one day trip to Mahabaleshwar which also indicates the end to any trip/tour before Professional Exam in June/July. All the best, in everything you'r currently involved in, whoever you are. May Allah gives the best to us, amiin <3

To mark the ending of the post, #paizdahbalik, #alinpunakbalik, #imissveeryoneinMalaysia, #happyengagementIzzat, #padanmukakenabacahashtagpepanjangpastutakdemaksuddahlatakmenarikhhahahahamestisusahgilanaktranslatekan


luas+cantik+bersih gila

harga makanan mmg xleh bawa bincang

their kitchen are viewable to public tau

model kepanasan haha

busynya these girls shoppin

nazira's face : masamnya

macik plg banyak senyum :D

nak tercicir naik 2 org, elok naik sorang la ye guys

model plg byk gambar dalam kamera smorang

gambar sy bersama model terkenal;
terkenal dengan suka pose tetiba dgn harapan org amik gambar dia

nazira + roy

ye ini bukan hasil kamera sony, ini hasil iphone

bila kena bluetick walau dia atas seekor kuda
tengok su guys

gambaq paling comel abad ni

Monday, December 4, 2017


Hey there! Assalamualaikum!

Alhamdulillah, after a very long period of sedentary lifestyle, (I did some zumba exercise though, in between) I finally got the chance to play volleyball. Many says that volleyball is unsuitable for me, since my arm size is just the same as a flat plank. Anyhow, since it does not require any scrambling, it is one my most anticipating games. I still did well as a server, & might be in need of help to improve my digging skills. Above all, yesterday was awesome.

Improving? So, how's the title related to this post?

Mind me. I'm self-reflecting. And may you got 'ibrah' from this writing.
As insulting as we could be, those who are not trying to improve for the better, are more insulting.
Albeit, no one says that getting out of our comfort zone is an easy task. We might fall, hurt ourselves here & there, or might even give up halfway to our goal. Hence, do not forget to channel every piece of faith we have in Him.
That way, even if there's failure, lacerated wounds, unhealed ill-feelings, we won't be questioning of what's happening? Instead, we'd be as calm as the sea, braving the high tides, like no one else could.
Believe me.

seronok banyak free time kat malaysia hhu

This is another story. We spent two days and a half, sketching, painting, repaint where there's errors, finishing up other people's work, to obtain such wonderful result. Am really not a creative-minded girl honestly, but am always happy to be able to help, InsyaAllah. In fact, all of us (we're 10 in total) did the sketching, but in the end, Afza still draw to her own creativity. The only thing that I sketched & was drawn exactly like the original idea was the curry puff. Haha. "Nevermind, at least there's one"-said Alin while consoling Fadzlin.

And here's the most-unexpected-colourful-memorable-fun-tiring-messy-time consuming piece of art by us. Thank you for all the support.

ada yg MIA. tinggal kami yang setia lebih sikit.

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Where have you been?

Guess what am I doing here? To be honest, there still is a pile of unsettled revision, unfinished work, undeciphered  lectures. Ughh, what a life.

Somehow, He taught me not to give up on Him even when I thought that it's impossible to be done. It is always hard to go against others, but it is always more difficult to go against ourselves. Reflect. There must be flaws along the journey. Reality hurts, so does pretence. Do not deviate. Do not fall. Keep putting on effort. Do not stop. He'll help you through, insyaAllah.

Assalamualaikum, readers. There's absolutely no outpour of ideas coming from my head these days. I do want to write, but, "Hey, idea! Where have you been?"


Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Out of norms

6/11, 09:45 am

Sifatnya aku puji,
Kasihnya aku cari,
Perhatiannya aku ingini.

Selalu tersenyum penuh misteri,
Walau hati sering teruji,
selalu melebihkan dari diri sendiri,
untuk melindungi yang disayangi.

Kadang harungi liku berduri,
Kadang jatuh kerana tersakiti,
Kadang mengalh saat tempuhi,
Namun yakin pada Ilahi,
Pasti ada hikmah yang tersembunyi.

Kita bukan seorang diri,
Yang menyayangi jangan mandiri,
Yang kurang peduli tukar strategi,
Sumbanglah pada komuniti Islami.


Jatuh lagi?
Tidak mengapa, bangun!

Kau kuat, Dia ada.

7/11, 11:45 am

Siapa aku?
Manusia hina yang banyak dosa,
Manusia biasa cetek ilmunya,
Manusia keji kerana kata2nya,
Manusia banyak berlambak kurangnya.

Memang bukan sesiapa,
Bukan bidadari dari syurga,
Bukan juga terjaga amalnya.

Mungkin aku,
Juga jauh dari Dia,
Juga bergeluman dengan noda,
Ya,  aku hina.

Mungkin aku,
Melatah tak tentu hala,
Berfikir hanya setengah kilometer,
Sedangkan destinasi masih jauh gila.

Jadi, aku?
Berjalanlah sesudah bertatih,
Berlarilah sesudah berjalan,
Pecutlah andai bersedia,
Ambil kira semua,
Dia sentiasa ada.

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Goa feat Girlfriends

Yay, I'm back. *a round of applause as bg music*

Assalamualaikum peeps. So, here's the thing, I should be doing my editing work instead of writing, but I just can't find the mood to do that. I guess my boss' head is burning inside out due to my delayed progress. For that, I'm sorry big boss, I'll try harder (I'll have it done by tonight #apromisetomyself).

A whole week of holiday had come to an end. A week's time isn't really long and to say that it was spent in vain, would probably be wrong. At the very beginning, I actually planned to explore Mumbai/Bombay, but as time goes by, I felt like I need some time to catch up with the syllabus, what with the crammed theories, I was surely in need of revision. Plus, there's really a countable lectures of which I didn't fall asleep in. So, it's my payback time, for my better future. Then, the idea was denied flatly after taking into account all consequences (mcm byk sgt consequencesnya).

Am still in a process of knowing and understanding myself when I realized, I can't stay in hostel for a week's time! I need to do sth about this! I just can't!
Here comes the middleman : Husna, Ema, Izyan & Hanisah. To cut a long story short, I went to Goa for the second time ,haha. Can't do anything about this since we weren't able to play watersports when we first stepped our feet in Goa. And here goes my Goa journey; Goa feat Girlfriends.

Woke up in time to prep for the trip. Everything went well except that we didn't get signed permission from he-who-must-not-be-named. To avoid getting scolded and whatnot, we used the Mess' back door and waited for our driver who promised to be there by 7 a.m. 15 minutes passed, 30 minutes passed and the clock struck 8. The owner's excuses include my best driver won't answer calls while driving, my best driver drives very carefully plus his Ramdev Restaurant is "50 minutes" away, how annoying was that. On top of that, our driver came smiling to his ears, maybe in hope that his mistake was going to be forgiven.

And the journey begins. At first, the annoyed us weren't really interested in engaging a conversation with Sakha. But, as clock ticks, we tried to be as friendly as we can. We were taken to Harvalem Waterfall to appreciate one of His best creations while filling up our stomachs. Then, we continued to travel though the tortuous road. No one was badly affected but Bee did act like she was having morning sickness, haha. I'm sorry, dear.

Two rooms were booked in Jacinta's by the beach guesthouse, and the condition were extremely clean, just like what the reviews mentioned. We had our lunch before heading to Baga beach. As per our plan, we should be enjoying watersports on Monday evening. To our surprise, the price was quite expensive in Baga beach, so we decided to take a look at Calangute/Candolim/Anjuna Beach. Nope, they are 3 different beaches okay.

Thus, with the unmistakably ticking clock, we spent our time together, splashing water to each other while watching the beautiful sunset (am still sad because I can't capture the view, blame Hanisah please).

Ended our first day in Goa with a great dinner in a Punjab Restaurant. The funny part is that, our driver was at the opposite side of the road when we came out for our car. He was wearing his eye-catching orange shorts just like before. Funnily enough, with those bright pants (obviously we can spot him in milliseconds) he actually tried waving his phone's torchlight to make his position even more obvious than it should have been. Haih, Sakha (#hgmmgpelik)

Woke up to the knock sounds on the door, performed Subh prayer, had our breakfast before waking up Sakha (he really love sleeping, susah nau nak bangun). We told him to drive us to a non-veg restaurant, he sighed and drove slowly along the road. Out of nowhere, to the thought of delicious puree, we mentioned that we'd also love to have a pure veg breakfast. Sakha was undoubtedly happy and sped up. He really is a loyal, religious guy. (mixed veg & non-veg food is considered haram tau; for them la)

Our next stop was Candolim beach and there we saw the high tides of water with no signs of opened water sports business. Then we made our way to Anjuna beach, which offered water sports at a range of Rs 2200++ for a package of parasailing, dolphin show, jetski ride, banana boat adventurous ride, bumper ride (this one was believed to be the main cause of backache, neck pain and wrist pain as we woke up to our first morning in hostel after the trip). We went there with a group of 6, making the dolphin show a much cheaper experience as we need to rent a whole boat for this. And it is quite advisable to go with pairs; 2,4,6. This is just to ensure that you're not going to be a lone rider.

Details for each activity can be obtained by contacting any of the girls on the trip. I can't bear writing this long post, and it feels like writing an essay, not a blog anymore. Albeit, an unexpected trip isn't always the best, only exceptionally more enjoyable and memorable. Thanks guys. I'm indebted.

Here's to more beautiful pictures, sceneries, reminiscence, shoppings, book-free-days.

J for ?
J = Joyah

spot the dolphins !

nelayan terdidik

husna mmg x jumpa dah blog ni ahahah

kuasa api


tumpang solat kat rumah auntie suraya, auntie mubina
& her daughter named khadijah
(keluarga imam masjid)

Am really hoping and praying to buy a camera real soon. 

Wednesday, October 4, 2017


Assalamualaikum everyone :)

It's that time again, when I can't resist writing about myself, though it had never been as interesting as yours, but well, that's me. And I thank God for everything He'd planned for me.

I don't know whether you readers have ever encounter such difficulties. But, fyi, everytime I write my blog posts, the title would be much of a concern. Haha, funny but true guys.

So, tbh the title was chosen because I start to feel that I belong here? Because I don't feel like I'm an outsider anymore? Ah, could it be because I'm beginning to accept my surrounding? Or maybe, just maybe, is it because I felt like I'm finally contributing to this community?

I'll just leave the questions hanging. Since I don't have that much time to write and nag, I'll just share a few of my favourite moments for the past weeks.

Fiqh Medic
Oh, before I "curhat"-ing, I do hope those certain people will not read this post haha. I'll be embarrassed if they do. (even if you're the one I'm referring to, you wouldn't noticed, *evillaugh*)
To begin with, I was one of the FM committee which was one of our successful and biggest events of the year. I was a Protocol committee, and believe me, I've never been one. 19 y/o I am, but the life experiences in between, were obviously insufficient. So, there I was, being new and confused, accepting knowledge passively, until there's only a few days left before the event.

Allah made it easy, okay. I was in a team with Kak Aizaa (yang comel, lembut, baik hati-please don't read this), Naim ( offer KFC tapi tak belanja pun, haih- sorry tergurau kasar that day), Tinah (my babyboo, yang banyak membantu, I'm happy we're in the same team) and Syaz (cucu ceq yang rajin namatey, n terus fit lpas habis program, haha). I'm so blessed to be in this team, and to be able to learn sth new is a definite golden opportunity.
Now I knew, how every smooth events are being handled. BIG LOVE for you guys

kenapa mesti nampak kekedingan itu?
bila nak fit ni? aiyoyo, I is sad

Naim penat design oo

paperbag tu pon ajk protocol buat kay
kraftangan kau jah

happy us

keluarga besar kami

aku post gambar ni, sbb nak cakap,
aku serabut tgok juz tu hah, tu je

Undoubtedly, being a Protocol committee, we should be present earlier than the participants. I almost got a heart attack on our first day of handling FM, because we were supposed to be there at 2;15 (1/2 hour earlier than actual event), but I woke up just to see the clock pointing at 2:30. Adrenaline rushed within me, and luckily I was fast enough to be just a few metres ahead of our guests. Alhamdulillah

There, that's one of the flaws. If you guys happened to not notice that, He really helped us through. Of course, it's nothing big, but I'm just glad for that. 
This is out of topic but always relatable. Even if you see those people around you smiling 24/7, giggling, joking like there's no tomorrow, trust me, there'll be flaws. There'll be times when we can't understand what we're capable of, we can't accept the fact that we're just human beings. Remember, He'll never burden you with sth beyond your sabr limit. Pray and never stop hoping, okay?

I just said that I really should not spend much time on this, haha (you lie to yourself alin)

Nope, this will be a brief one. As a SPR committee, I can't help being pushed to do the multimedia 'thingy', just because I was involved with it once. Nope, I'm not complaining, but I do have so much to learn to be on the sma elevel as Muhsin, Naim, Kak Sofea, Zuhairy. Thus, I'd like to thank you guys for giving me another chance to prove and improve. May there'll be one day when I can really design like a pro designer, amiinn.

(Nak tengok ''rejected poster"? Haha, mana tak kena reject, lawan Muhsin kot - ibarat kalah sebelum masuk gelanggang bertanding)

ni lah yg kene reject tu, harap maklum hahahahahaha

May the odds be ever in your favour- TEEHEE