WARNING : this post contains mainly about me and my emotional feelings..so for those who are having a hard time, just ignore this post cause it might worsen your day, I thought? btw, the choice is still in
your hands.. so please, I beg of you, make a wise one..
Assalamualaikum my dearest readers!!
so, how's life? did it turn out the way you plan or did it happen to be better than your expectations? these questions require some subjective answers which vary for each person.. and if you feel like it, even at the very least to answer this question do leave your comments here.. they will be gladly accepted and are having probability to be replied of a 100%..yeah, I bet so.. (if, by any chance, you have ever wanted me to reply them)
I don't know why, but I just come to think of it..
to be exact before I slept, or actually it occurred after I've finished my 'Asr prayer, I realized that there is only 2 days left before the
parting.. sob, sob.. I can't let it out of my empty mind and I can't really imagine how it will be to leave the teachers, my loving friends and the school itself.. I've left much of innocent memories there and now, I just have to leave it like that? how I wish I could use the 'time turner' and enjoy my time in school back then.. wishing for something impossible is not really worth it, right?
after being through all these wonderful years, now is the time for the painful part.. for the matter of fact, I really can't imagine the future.. cause it hurts and I feel like crying every single seconds when I think of it.. but then, sooner or later, I will have to face the reality and do what it takes to move on.. it sounds kind of hard and maybe it definitely will? oh, I really don't want to know or care about it..
dinie,
ainatul,
aina.. for all your love, assistance, kindness, foolish acts and cuteness (?) I want to thank you a million times, a trillion times or so (really, have you ever count how many times you thank someone ? cause I didn't and I will not to forever)..anyway, you have taught me about life, how there will be times when you're happy, sad, grateful, regret or even being secretive.. and not just that you have helped me going through it but also being there whenever or wherever I need you.. maybe you lack sometimes, so as me myself, cause we're humans not gods.. and we're not perfect.. I know you knew that but I still want towrite it out.. :)
if we're destined together, then insya-Allah we're going to be schoolmates (again!) or even roommates.. but it's kind of funny to think about it, though.. and this feeling of mine is hoping for us to stay close and stick together for the best is yet to come.. on the other hand, the feeling of us getting together is impossible keeps recurring in my head as time goes by.. and to be honest, i'm kind of scared...
surprisingly, this post still hasn't reach the end of it..
for my classmates from form 1 to form 3, I would like to dedicate you my special thanks for letting me ride the best ship on earth, FRIENDSHIP..i will always recall these reminiscence in the future.. and for those who still don't know that i'm forgetful, well, unfortunately but undoubtedly I am.. so, if we're going to see or meet or something similar to those, please greet me first and don't ever let it cross to your mind that I am arrogant.. cause I've never been and will not be (insya-Allah)
for my great teachers, thank you for teaching me to be a person.. a good one.. I really appreciate your love, trust, commitment, dedication, scolds and laughters.. thank you for being there when I need you.. thank you for your continuous scolding that helped me to be better..( and trust me teachers, i'm not being sarcastic here, it's just that I know you did that because you love me, that you want the best for me ) and I thank you for that.. i'll be missing you and praying that you'll live a good life together with your beloved family.. may Allah bless you!!
for those who love me (if only you manage to find this blog and read this post) thank you for acknowledging my existence.. and I really appreciate it.. really, because i'm always being left out.. so, thank you.. hoping that you'll be happy and succeed in this life and hereafter..
for computerize commentators, thank you for your busy-bodyness in my blog.. though, I didn't really like your existence, your owner must be very desperate to make some ads and sell something.. well, it's their effort to succeed and why would I be mad at those brilliant people.. being able to make ads and asking indirectly towards internet users to read them is just as awesome as it could ever be!
and so 1 hour had just passed.. I took a long time to create this crap.. wonder how long will it takes for me to write something good.. need to improve my writing skill..
got to sleep now.. just for your information, it is currently 12.54 a.m now.. and so goodbye!
