Gostan

Crapping mode is turned on.

Assalamualaikum guys. Intentionally, I feel like writing a new post because there are some issues lingering inside my head. So, undoubtedly, this post is another 'curhat'-ing post.

I love how our friendship was, when everything seems to be a perfect lock-and-key hypothesis, and everyone seems to be happy (I emphasised on the word seems to). I don't say that I couldn't tolerate or accept how people around me socialise (and I'm not even here to discuss about social issues between boys & girls), because practically I'm here to 'curhat' about my girl friends.

How do I put this into words? 

Let me start this with a question? What is our core intention of wanting to befriend with others?

If we are befriended with not-even-one intention at all,it's okay? Because by now you should've realised that every relationship should have a strong core. And insyaAllah above all other intentions, one of mine would be because of Him.

Thus, with that intention, anything that could have happen within our period of knowing and learning about each other, should be settled with that intention. And I supposed that even the smallest thing that we do is so that we get that 'mardhatillah'. And my stand is that, as long as we don't go beyond what Syari'e stated, Alhamdulillah we're on the right track. But say if I do sth wrong (well, I might do this everyday), I beg for your wise words and love and care to actually advice me earnestly, because I might be the reason you're not in the place you're supposed to be in Hereafter, (TT)

And I'd like to share my thoughts about this as well, as on how we shouldn't treat people outside our inner circle with such a manner that he/she could be feeling left out. I mean, of course we all have that one small inner circle of friends to whom we turn to esp when there's happy/sad things to be talked about. But living in a society also means that you should include everyone in your thoughts or at least you should realise that there are other people around you besides you inner circle.

I tried to be more understanding but to an extent that I get annoyed due to the feeling of inexistence or unneeded, (or maybe this is just what I feel, and I shouldn't have said it out loud here). If my opinion is one of those you listen to, then, in my opinion, we should all live and act together as a family. Plus, I do regard you guys as a part of my family. Do not just keep the important,limited information, knowledge to yourselves and your inner circle because it hurts. It hurts.

But I do think that this might be a part of maturation process. We're growing! It's growth! If this is the answer to my doubts, then how I really wish to 'gostan' times to where we could all share things together like we used to ;(

Hey you! Yes, you! I hope that this post didn't manage to ruin any of your beautiful days ;) (I'm sorry to have you reading until this very word) Have a wonderful days ahead!

i miss US